Sent out the first round of query letters on Sunday night. One of the agencies said they’d get back to me in four weeks if they were interested (email auto-response). The others said nothing.
Now I get to play the waiting game I suppose.
It’s weird the thoughts that go through your head when making large decisions like this. I had a taste of it when submitting to the contest and the literary journal, but this was on a larger scale. Self-judgement I suppose? Feel like I’m in over my head.
If nothing comes if this (which, I’m really not expecting much to happen) then nothing changes. I keep writing for myself an life goes on.
If I get a response, well, that’s a whole other can of worms. To be clear, a response, either positive or negative is a step in the right direction. A positive step leading to an agent, or perhaps comments on how I could improve my query letter. Even a negative step, being completely ignored, I could spin into being positive. I would then be positively certain that I need to move my writing in a different direction.
Anyway, submitting those letters was hard. Hope things get easier.